I can't go to sleep until I write this down. I don't want to forget.
Tonight Dan and I read scriptures together, something we have been trying to be better at. We continued where we left off and read Ether Chapter 11. I was a little bored tonight and my eyes dry and tired from crying in contacts... but half-way through the chapter, I thought, "It's good we're getting back in the habit of reading, so if the Lord does need to give us a message, we'll be more likely to receive it."
Still, I was ready to be done with our one chapter tonight. Dan saw the upcoming chapter and encouraged us to read it. I agreed, even though to be honest, I was not really in the mood.
Dan read the first five verses, so naturally, I read the next five, switching off as we tend to do. I believe with all my heart it was intended that I speak the following words aloud:
6 And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith.
7 For it was by faith that Christ showed himself unto our fathers, after he had risen from the dead; and he showed not himself unto them until after they had faith in him; wherefore, it must needs be that some had faith in him, for he showed himself not unto the world.
8 But because of the faith of men he has shown himself unto the world, and glorified the name of the Father, and prepared a way that thereby others might be partakers of the heavenly gift, that they might hope for those things which they have not seen.
9 Wherefore, ye may also have hope, and be partakers of the gift, if ye will but have faith.
It was so humbling to hear myself say these words. I was just thinking and journaling today about my wavering faith today and how I need to strengthen it. I'm so grateful for Dan's prompting for us to read further. I know we both needed to hear those words and discuss them together. The chapter is so full and amazing!
Sometimes I don't understand why we need certain trials, or wonder why a trial needs to be as long as it is... But the Lord has a plan for each of us. It is purposeful and intentional and somehow all for our good, even if we can't see the big picture amidst our trial.
Today I am reminded of the importance of regular scripture reading. It is just one more way the Lord can answer our prayers.
Recovering and Surrendering
9 years ago
3 comments:
Faith seems so hard to get our minds around...sometimes I have these small moments of clarity that make me wonder how I did not understand it before....but then, in the moment or in a particular situation, I am helplessly forgetful about what the Lord has taught me. I am glad you are doing these things. Those moments of clarity can turn into a continuum of enlightenment and strength....I'm not there but I can tell you are. Pretty cool process. I don't know if you see a difference in yourself, but I sure do! You're amazing. Love you.
Here I am in Cambodia, and I am reading your blog. That tells you how much I love it. Although sometimes the subjects are sad I never exit your blog feeling depressed, only uplifted. You are just so inspiring. I need to be better at reading my scriptures. What a neat direct answer to your prayers that you had through the scriptures. I love it and I love you!
We are so lucky that the Lord knows us and takes care of us. I am looking forward to seeing you in a few months when we make our big move!!
Post a Comment